觀察

我的創作實踐總是關於我和這個世界的關係，它讓我覺得自己在這個世界上有一席之地，我們是相連的。
我總是在筆記上記錄我的想法，有時候是一個念頭，有時候是一個構圖，有時候是堵塞了思路的一點點東西。
然後我會開始創作作品，卻不清楚最終的結果是什麽（如果以畫作為例，會更容易）。我最喜歡的狀態，就是在創作過程中，有新的東西產生出來，就像讓無意識的東西釋放到我正在創作的東西上。
但是，我又不是讓無意識去佔據所有，創作的過程也是決策的過程，你決定畫上需要的東西，有時候需要理性。我想我還在學習如何在理性和直覺之間保持平衡。
有時候，當我感到困頓的時候，我不相信繪畫，也不相信藝術，但我又如何相信呢？要相信，你首先要有懷疑的態度。有時候你可通過書本尋找答案，讀那些為藝術辯護的書，與對藝術持懷疑態度的書，你都要看。而有時我也會跟朋友或教授交談，對話是救贖。與自己的對話也是很重要的，找出困擾、觸發、讓你情緒化的東西，跟自己對話。
另外，觀察週圍的事物，觀察自己，觀察自己的日常，觀察自己無意識的胡言亂語，觀察自己和別人的關係，這也有幫助。
所有這些混亂的想法的重要性在於，你需要更多的時間來思考，冷靜下來，整理你的想法。有時候，我們通過創作來梳理。
幾個月前，我對繪畫的想法持懷疑態度，我不知道那是什麽了。而幾個月後，我看到了畫布上的無限可能，在那幾個月裹，我沒有創作任何繪畫。我做了別的事情，我做動畫、木工、閱讀。
我的一個朋友曾經跟我說過，他是一位籃球運動員。有天，教練讓他去踢足球，這叫交叉訓練。這跟創作類似，但又不一樣，它會讓你從原來的問題中找到另一條出路。 我也差不多是這樣做的。我想我永遠不會停止問問題，永遠做一些讓創作長久的事情。
請建立一個時間表，或者一個日常規律，重新調整自己的生活或心情。當我完成一個展覽或其他事情後，我會清理我的房間和工作室，扔掉生活中不需要的東西，我覺得這樣可以讓我的心情平靜下來，讓自己為下一個項目做好準備。
創作過程是一種愉悅的體驗，但另一方面行政管理我並不擅長，我還在學習和調整，希望隨着時間的推移，我可以更好的應對。
我想，看新聞吧？情緒是個很難應付的東西，我還在學習不被情緒影響，有時候生活中有些事情發生了，你會心煩意亂一兩天，有時候是幾個月甚至幾年，我還在學習尋找內心的平靜。

Observe

My creative practice is always about the relationship between me and the world, it makes me feel like I have a place in the world or somewhat connected.
I always record what I have in my mind through taking notes, sometimes it is a thought, sometimes a composition, sometimes it is emotion that has clogged my thoughts.
And then I will start working on artworks, without a clear idea of what the end result will be (it would be easier if I’m talking about a painting as an example). The state that I love the most, is something new grows in the creative process. It is like letting the unconsciousness unleash itself to the things that I’m working on.
However, it is not like I let the unconsciousness do all the work, the creative process is also the process of decision making, you decide what is necessary on the painting, and sometimes that needs rationality. I guess I am still in the process of learning to maintain a balance of being rational and letting the intuition guide me.
Sometimes when I feel stuck, I don’t believe in painting, or art, but how do I believe again? To believe, you need to be skeptical first. Sometimes you have to find answers through books, books of people defending art and some people being skeptical about art, you have to read both. And sometimes I talk to my friends or professors, conversations are the salvation. Conversations with ourselves are also important, find out what bothers you, what triggers you, what makes you feel emotional, talk to yourself.
Also, observe what’s around you and observe yourself, observe your routines, observe your unconscious babbling, observe the relationship between you and others, that helps too.
The importance of all these chaotic thoughts is that you need more time to think, calm down and organise your thoughts. Sometimes we organise through creating.
A few months ago, I was skeptical about the idea of painting, I did not know what that was anymore. And a few months later, I saw the infinite possibilities on the canvas, in those months, I didn’t work on any paintings. I did something else, I worked on animation,woodwork, I read.
A friend of mine once told me that he was a basketball player. One day, the trainer asked him to play football, and this is called crossed training. It is like doing something similar but different, it will make you find another way out from the questions that you were asking. I was pretty much doing the same thing. I guess I would never stop asking questions, always do something that makes the creative process long-lasting.
Please create a timetable, or a routine that you can always come back to, readjust your life or your mood. Once I finish an exhibition or something else, I would clean my room and studio, I will throw away things that are not necessary in my life, I feel like that calms my mood and get myself ready for the next project.
Creative process is a delightful experience, but administration on the other hand I’m not good at. I’m still learning and adjusting, hoping that I can cope with it a little bit better as the time goes by.
I guess reading the news? Emotion is a tough thing to cope with, I’m still learning not to be affected by emotions, sometimes there are things in life that happen, you will be distracted for a day or two, sometimes a few months or years, I’m still learning to find inner peace.